ZERO ONE BREAKER

STALKER

One Christmas morning some years ago, I awoke from a vivid experience, a series of memories, detailed episodes from Amy's life. I didn't know her music very well and was not in the country during the years of her success yet the dream was lucid. They revealed to me that she had been pregnant and lost the baby, and after this spiralled further into drinks and drugs.
When I awoke from this vision I immediately did a search online on her and the first thing I saw was her "Back to Black" video, so I watched it, and there she is, burying a tiny casket. I think this was a private matter and this was the only way she expressed it to the world.

Of course you can say I just have a wild imagination and this is all wild coincidence, perhaps I'm wrong. However admittedly this isn't the only dead rock star that has come to me imparting visions.
Another example is after the death of Eddie Van Halen (I knew two of his songs) I met him and he gave me a shot of tequila which I could vividly taste. When I awoke I searched online and found out the band have their own tequila! I had no idea about this either. You see I investigate these things like a detective and most of the time I uncover uncanny connections like this.
I could go on, I have also had similar dreams of people close to me and the next day found out they had passed away unexpectedly.

I'm inclined to think this was not just my imagination but a vision of another life. I have been through too many strange things and magical things now for me to think otherwise. This is a Carol I wrote for Amy like a modern day Dickens tale, that happened to me.

YOU CAME TO ME LIKE A VISION OF DICKENS IN TIMES PAST
WAS IT A WARNING? DO I FOLLOW YOU INTO A PATH OF SELF DESTRUCTION
CREATION, DRINKING, YOU SHOWED TO ME A VIDEO OF TIME
IN MY HEAD AND OUT OF MY MIND, I DIDNT KNOW THAT YOUR BABY DIED

EBANEZER CANT DENY THIS MEMORY AFTER ALL IVE SEEN
OF ELUSIVE MYSTERY, SO HELP ME TELL THIS STORY
YOUR SPIRIT LINGERS, LIKE MIST ON A FULL MOON NIGHT
YET WHO AM I, TO LEAD THE WAY, TO TRY AND FIND THE DYING LIGHT

AMY I NEVER KNEW YOU BUT YOU SHOWED TO ME VISIONS OF LIFE AND DEATH
YOU LOST A CHILD AND YOU LOST YOUR MIND, THIS WORLD OF SIN CAN BE UNKIND
BUT THEY LOVED YOU AND I HOPE YOU, FIND YOUR WAY TO HEAVEN WHEN YOU LEARN TO FLY
FREE FROM LIMBO ETERNIA, PAST THE SPHERES BEYOND GEBURAH
ON AND ON, BRAVE MOTHER!
ON AND ON, BRAVE SISTER!

Sometimes when my life has become chaotic and I can see dark forces working against me, I have gone to a church to feel the blessings and protection of the Holy Spirit. I don't go as much as I should and don't refer to myself as a devote Christian, though my ancient ancestors are proven to be Druids and Templars, and this comes as no surprise to me as I have always been akin to them both.

This song "came to me in a dream." Like it says. The "My Miracle" chorus part is what I heard so when I awoke I made a note of it and then wrote the rest of the song around this part. Brian "Head" Welch from Korn was also there and I had watched his videos previously on how he became a Christian and his journey away from drug addiction to salvation.

So it is only apt and auspicious that this song be released over Easter, the time when Yeshua and Persephone both return from the Underworld reborn, and the Unconquered Sun returns to us with the rise of Spring, as I rise victorious over my own struggles. Sol Invictus.


CAME TO ME IN A DREAM
THE SOUND YOU HEAR I'LL SET THE SCENE
ON A LIVE STAGE BEFORE A CROWD
WOKE, WROTE THE SONG THAT I HAD FOUND

CHAOS REIGNS, IT NEVER ENDS
BREAK THE SPELL YOU'RE BORN AGAIN
PRIMA MATERIA, REVEALS ALL THE TIME
REMINDS ME THAT
ALL IS MIND

SKY BLIND
OPEN UP YOUR EYES
TO UNCONQUERED SUN

MY MIRACLE.

Many of the musicians I grew up listening to have died from either drugs or suicide. They have killed themselves. This seems to be a statistically high hazard of the rock star job strangely. I felt compelled to write this song after the death of not only Chris Cornell but also Keith Flint around the same time. Apparently suicide is the highest killer of men under 50 in the UK, our society is fatally flawed.

I once played a demo of this song to a friend who I only knew online. I didnt know them too well but they were chill and had good music taste, often putting on interesting and obscure sounds for our room to listen to. I told them what the song was about and they liked it. However this person sometimes spoke of a demon they were haunted by and one day they never came back. We are pretty sure from the things they said that it was suicide.

This song ends with the simple and overt lyrics to really hammer the message home.

Please, dont kill yourself.

YOU HAD IT ALL AND I DONT HAVE SHIT
THEN YOU QUIT, SO NO I DONT WANT IT
AROUND THE WORLD A FIRE LIT BURNED OUT
WHY DID YOU DO IT?
IDOLOTRY SUICIDE ACCIDENTLY ROLE MODEL
WHY YOU HAVE TO DO IT? IT'S BAD FOR MORALE
SUCCESS IS DEATH, HEDONIST FLAME
FAME INSANE IT'S ALL PART OF THE GAME

TO BE BIGGER THAN YOU
TO BE BIGGER THAN ME
HOW TO BE FREE WHEN EVERYONE SEES?

THE SHADOW
BROKEN MIRROR
SMILING DECEIVER
THE MIRAGE FADES AWAY

NO TIME TO GO, IS IT PART OF THE FLOW?
IN THE QUEST FOR GOLD, THE LEGEND TOLD
IT HAPPENED BEFORE, IT'LL HAPPEN AGAIN
THE VOICE OF FLAME, MY ONLY FRIEND
WHERE YOU GO? WE MISS YOU
WHY YOU THINK THAT NO ONE CARE?
YOU SAW DEATH SHE KISS YOU
NOW YOU'RE STUCK IN NOWHERE.

THE SHADOW
BROKEN MIRROR
SMILING DECEIVER
THE MIRAGE FADES AWAY

DONT KILL YOURSELF
PLEASE
DONT KILL YOURSELF

FOR YEARS NOW IVE BEEN WATCHING YOUR SIGNS
COULD BE CENTURIES
IF SO WHO AM I?
HIDDEN, DIVINE
YOUR TRIALS BEAT ME DOWN
OH SOLEMN, VIRGIN
SO HEAVY IS YOUR CROWN.

YOUR FAME IS SPELL BINDING TO ME
YOUR GLORY, VICTORY
YOU SET MANKIND FREE
YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A SWORD
HAMMERED STEEL
TRANSMUTE IN THE FLAME
IDOLOTRY DRIVES ME INSANE

ATHENA
ELUSIVE
ATHENA

FOR MILLENIA
FEMALE MESSIAH
WORLD IS ON FIRE
FEMALE MESSIAH