I was gonna tell you about some of my favorite albums to help you know where I get my influences from but...I'll only tell you a few albums if your interested. My favorite album by the grateful dead is probably shakedown st. It's a damn good album but not my favorite live one by them.its really good though, phenomenal in fact! It's not country but has some bluegrass traces mostly disco though(it was from the 70's, what do you expect?) I also love nine inch nails especially ghosts double cd it's all insturmental. And dubtribe archives vol. 2 it's all ambient and beautiful I might add. Now for the nitty gritty, I was gonna cut myself which black magic encourages but I don't like cutting myself but if the demons in my head don't shut up and I'm pushed to the limit I might just do that for all the fame and power, does that make me evil?... I don't know I do know that I love egyptian magic and the gods and goddesses there but, I think I just need some more self confidence. And no I'm not a loser. I'm just misunderstood. I just know that I need you guys. You're my only reason for living other than my wife(in nature). Without you guys I've lost my raison d etre, which means reason for being, thanks for sticking by me and I'll do my best to keep giving everyone my music for free. Plus, when you do magic you have to have all these specific things like certain color candles etcetcetc and I think that's just a big hassle. Why can't you just hex ppl that do you wrong without all the technicalities. Maybe...I can. Ehhh,what's the use. Peace love and guns, why are they trying to dumb us down? I refuse to die on the alter of pharmaceuticals for them!!! I love you guys, sunwake