Life is hard. Relationships with toxic people are crippling to the human spirit, thus, an impossible, crusade to hell, and finally just not worth it. You can lead a horse to water,...... the test of time has worn my spirit down to a nub, and faced with the choice between fighting for your life for something you were led to belive was a true and worthy investment for your life's path, turns to rubble in the light of day (and five years of beating your head on a horse you didnt know was dead) and fighting for your very existence..... self preservation and salvaging whats left of my heart, i choose love. love of self, self worth, integrity, and my sincere desire to be able to receive love from myself and move on to a heathy productive life where im unincumbered by the sabotage of a selfish deluded sociopath in sheeps clothing whos only agenda is to derail and maline my lifes path out of jeaousy and spite because they are so deep in their pathology of manipluation, and delusions of gradure so huge its exploded into a God complex which exhonorates them from any accountability for their henious, basically, criminal behavior. so, here i am. The velveeta cheese stands alone. My heart is on a shelf and my determination to persevere the trauma from this person and keep rising to the top. im sadden by the choices of this individual. i truly gave them my all. I had no idea that my only purpose for being in that " person's" life, was to be their whipping post/toilet. sorry, that dog dont hunt no more cuz he done killed it with lies and abuse worthy of caligula himself. if any of that makes any sense.... all i know is i got thrown in front of a freight train everyday for the last 5 years. And im just a clubbed baby seal who dont know nothing. ive got a few new songs...nothing like pain to get you creating... trying to find another guitarist to fill the hole left behind by the man known only as narcissist. So, that explains why its been so long since i posted anything. I would appreciate your prayers, well wishes and support to guide me through this transition as i reinvent this project again. I hope this wasnt too much, and scared anyone away with my verbal vomit, but i felt i owed you all an explanation. Thank you for your continued support, and if theres any guitarist, percussionists .....hit me up, im hiring... humbly yours, Theresa