2 songs for novemeber
November 2020 has been a month... 11/9 I see a senior colleague and someone I look up to posted a song to their youtube. I check the video without hesitation, every song he writes is rich with emotion and stirs my heart like it did when I first heard him two years ago and fell in love with my wife. o phrase that better, Okame-P (Il Cremonese) wrote the soundtrack of my marriage for the first year or so. I can't walk through the park without being haunted by the music and the melancholy emotions I was facing before I found true love and happiness. This guy releases his albums for free, and inspired me to do the same. If this guy's music is free, then my inferior music should be free as well.
Short version, he's been influential in my happiness and life.
So when this guy writes new material, oh boy do I go and listen. And in the description box I read. "I've got pancreatic cancer, they found it too late, I'm suffering a lot of pain, this will be my last work. Good bye, love you guys." I'm devastated, heartbroken. I weep and pray, plead and beg with God to rescue his soul if his body is decaying, that I can have a chance in heaven to say "Thank you, for everything" even if I can't say that directly. So I wrote "A wolf and cockatiel" in just two days (I could revisit it to improve the quality) because translated (If I'm correct) Okame is wolf, and he had a pet cockatiel that died, that he made an album titled cockatiel.
Today is the day he said he'd release his final album. I check twitter for the link. I see his tweets, some in English most in Japanese, and among them I read, "Sorry for making you guys worry, I'm in treatment for my delusions brought on by terrible depression. I'm not dying from cancer." Immediately I think: Oh thank God, my prayers have been answered, he's not dying and there's still time. Next it is important to point out, with my own health condition included, that during an episode the patient is not at fault for what is said or done. So I can't begin to blame him for lying or printing false information. I'm just glad he's not dying...
So that's what that "A wolf and a cockatiel" is about. I'd urge you to check out his stuff, youtube's a good place.
http://il-cremonese.net/1st-lp.htm (his website, 4 albums listed as free)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SVbpY4iE1Q8 You're Not Alone
The other song, Resolute was initially to be an instrumental track, but I felt it needed some vocals. I feel I raised the bar maybe just a smidge with the mastering and effects. I'm not sure if the version I release here will be the one for the album, but for now it gets the point across. Life can be short, it can end at any time, now is the time to remember my marriage vows and hold to them like I did on the first day. I need to be more resolute, and continue to treat this institution as sacred as God does, and to follow and take to heart, Jesus's words "He who looks at a woman with lust has already committed adultery in his heart" and in your heart it takes root, grows to thoughts, grows to words and eventually full blown action. I want to protect my heart, and the space in it she resides, as well as Jesus would if he were in my position.
So enjoy yet another love song, and a sad song. Album should be released once I hit 12 songs, then the 0's will become track numbers.